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Journal Entry: Thu Oct 30, 2014, 6:59 AM
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alright so... for a while now, I've been thinking about one day working at DreamWorks. Like, that's my dream job, I suppose. I would LOVE to be a storyboard artist at DreamWorks Animation. 

but my hopes are starting to get crushed. this may sound crazy, but I'm worried the universe is trying to tell me something, because whenever I try to do something associated with DreamWorks or a DreamWorks movie, like a contest or something, my hopes for whatever it is get crushed.

First example: that freaking HTTYD t-shirt contest. the one where you could win a trip to the DreamWorks Animation studio. I spent DAYS, HOURS on this little-ampharos.deviantart.com… for that contest. I poured so much time, energy and effort into that drawing. I told myself that I would be ok if I lost. I told myself that I wouldn't be upset. I was perfectly fine with losing. but once I entered, I could publicly see how much I was losing by. and I lost by a lot. had I not seen that, I would've been fine. But that really destroyed my hopes. I didn't even bother entering the contest this year because of that. and I'm not saying that I think I deserved to win because I really don't think I did, but just the fact that I could see how much I was losing by really hurt. I really hoped that people from the website would be judging and that it wouldn't be a public thing, because I noticed a trend that if something had a lot of votes, no matter how good or bad it was, it would continue to get more votes. If a GREAT design had few votes, it would stay that way. People tend to go with what others think, I guess. 

Second example: On Twitter, Chris Sanders and Kirk DeMicco were doing a live chat thing, where you could tweet questions about the Croods and they would answer them. I was so pumped that I sat there with my phone for hours right before it started, waiting. I asked a question, and spent 30 minutes refreshing Twitter to see if they'd answer it. They didn't, so I asked another. Meanwhile, it seemed like they were answering 90% of the questions asked. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's what it felt like. When I finally saw the "that's a wrap!" tweet from DreamWorks, it kinda ruined my night.

Third example: ok this one might be stretching it a bit, but whatever. My school's drama club did Shrek! the Musical this year and I was SO PUMPED. I'm not in the drama club, but I was really hoping I could be in the pit orchestra. I asked my band teacher about the pit orchestra almost every day and showed a ton of interest. She told me that I could be in it, but then she realized that it would be more fair to hold auditions. so I did the worst audition I've ever done for anything because I was really nervous and yea. I was up against a sophomore (who's better than me but she's been playing sax longer than I have...) and I was really hoping that since I'm a senior, my teacher would let me do it since it would be my last chance. maybe I was wrong to hope for that. she posted the results and it really hurt when I saw the sophomore's name on the list. 

this probably sounds really stupid, but I'm starting to feel like all of this means something... any time I've tried to do something associated with DreamWorks, it always ended in disappointment, so I'm almost starting to think that this means I shouldn't even bother trying to get a job there. you can tell me if this sounds stupid. like, if I'm crazy for thinking this stuff. but I guess this is just how my mind works.  

I'm really sorry if I sound whiny, but I just needed to get this out. Also I wrote this journal a while ago and saved it as a draft and never posted it so I'm posting it now haha

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